Smile And Let Go :)

From twitter

2012-02-06T21:30:00.001+08:00

Never give up on someone you love just because it's easier.

I keep staring at your name, screaming "talk to me" in my head. As if you could hear me.

It’s hard to wait for something you know might never happen. But it’s even harder to give up when you think it’s everything you want.

不属于你的，勉强也不是幸福，等待也是个未知数，放弃会是最好的答案吗？但都等了这么久，舍得吗？

I wish you knew I liked you, so it would at least make you question yourself if you like me too.

女生都希望這輩子能被一個男生真心真意地追求，一直被守候。

The same old heart-broken feeling is back. Same shit, different people.

Happy ^^

2012-01-27T00:02:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna earn money now and treat myself to good foodsss(I have a long list :D) after I take out my braces hopefully by the end of the year(or even earlier)! Interested parties are welcomed! :) But we go Dutch! HAHAHA

Chinese new year 2012!

2012-01-25T19:33:00.000+08:00

Chinese new year is here!!! Though I'm 3 days late. Heh. My job has ended and I've collected angbaos! gonna send in my time sheet soon and get my pay. ^^ According to many fortune tellers, 2012 is an excellent year for rooster! Like 5 stars out of 5 stars. :D I do hope this is true and 2012 will be good for me! So far so good lurh. Made new friends, talk to people, pretty slack job, catching up with friends, etc. but I need to find a new job soon. Why is it so hard to find an admin job with pay over 1400/mth?!

Gong xi, gong xi!

pieces here and there

2012-01-15T16:10:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for CNY! 'Cause that would mean that my first official job is over! Heh. My job is pretty much fun if my partner is around, but a bore if she's not. I always seek her help even though she is like 1 year younger than me. Hahaha.

What is my job basically about. Quite slack. (Y)

I dyed my hair! Like finally! Yay! Wanted to dye it when i finished my Os but i chose the JC path and is too lazy to dye it back to black when JC starts so i didn't in the end. =.= Happy with my hair colour now. At least it's not boring black anymore. :)

Bye black hair~ (my eyebags T.T)

Hello brownish hair~ (and that's my work uniform by the way)

Foot spa at SR(source from twitter), which i think it's a total waste of the funds we raised last year. Like seriously? A foot spa? What the hell is she thinking about? Why can't she utilize the funds in better areas such as upgrading the lt tables or the toilets? They are more essential to a student rather than a freaking foot spa right? I think she just wants to make the school look better in the public eyes. It's stupid. I'd choose better learning environment.

Please let 2012 be good

2012-01-11T23:40:00.001+08:00

11 days into 2012. Really, all I want this year is to be a good year. That's all. Not hoping it'll be an awesome and fantastic year, but at least let it be good. So far, everything is going fine. Other than work which caused me to roll my eyes a few times a day. Some customers are just so qian bian. That aside, I like my work partner and most of the staffs there. And the guys working there are good looking lol. But too old for me. HAHAHA! This Chinese new year, other than angbaos, I'm gonna get my first paycheck. Great. I love my life now. (Y) though I missed having crushes to go crazy over and stalk. I guess we all have to grow up and be more mature. Meh.

Speechless

2012-01-03T12:15:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to say. Sometimes she's such a bitch that I feel like killing her, not literally of course. She does things on purpose just to irritate me when she's jealous I have certain things or whatever. She's fucking 20. Can't she act like one? Can't she be mature like other sisters? I wonder what the fuck is growing in that mind of hers.

2011

2011-12-30T22:40:00.002+08:00

2011 is gonna be the past and we'll soon step into 2012, the so-called 'doomsyear'.

2011 has been a pretty bad year having to struggle with my studies and being emotional at times. But i think i should thank some people in my life for giving me this strength to carry on and survive until now.

My JC friends.
Abby for always pangseh-ing me for James! But nah, i forgive you 'cause love is in the air~ And being my gossiping buddy and going crazy over crushes.

Elvira for being so funny. Never fail to make me laugh. From tripping over invisible stuffs to thinking that i have a crush on the indian friend (of tcg). Lol. And of course, enlightening me in Chem and Physics.

Chelsea for being my first new found friend is S2! She was the first person i talked to, excluding those i've already know in j1. She's my companion for almost everything from lessons to experiments to breaks! And she's nice and smart! Like not bitchy or irritating at all.

Shuyin for knowing the awesome me in the later half of the year and regretting not knowing me earlier! Haha, kay, i made that up. Though i still don't how how she started going to breaks with us and all, but it's more fun when she joined us cause she talks about everything. Lol. But i'm still jello cause she stole Jill from me.

2S02 for being such a cheerful and fun class. I admit i thought it was going be a boring and nerdy year for me since it's like so called the top class of the combi where all the smart and so nerd people go there, me not included thanks. Thank God this class is amazing. I liked it more than 1S01. Like all the funny and guailan and yet smart people all congregate there, me included thanks. I liked how the guys always suan the teachers and the teachers played along. I liked my GP group too! Cause the 2 funniest guys in my class is in my group and my group members are nice(i cant believe i said this) and cute(not in the crush kind of way yeah). Though there's still a few weird people in my class. Meh.

My secondary friends.
Huiying and Jess! We seldom meet up but we're still tweeting/texting/whatsapping each other! Talking 'bout our jc friends and discussing 'bout school work. Unlike Eee, evaporate liao! Haha!

Last but now least, MY FAMILY!
"I would like to thank my father, my mother, my aunt, my sister and my brother..." Family matters the most to me, so even though they irritate me at times, i still love them *awww :')*. Hahaha. When i reached home after a long day mugging in school, my family will still remember to leave dinner for me. And my parents asking me to sleep early when i'm still doing my homework at 12.

HERE TO A BETTER 2012! :)

kl and JB

2011-12-30T19:13:00.001+08:00

Went to KL from Monday to Wednesday and came back to sleep for a night before going off to JB on our own for 2 days. So rush, my peeling skin didn't even have time to recover.

We booked a coach for S$200 each for the KL trip with my ahgong and aunts. But I think it's not worth it lol. Cause my main aim is to shop and not go for sight-seeings and visiting temples. Not to mention I've got a damn bloody lousy lot from some temple when my mum asked about my A levels. FTS. I certainly hope it wouldn't come true if not I'll die. And the reason why I hate going overseas in large group is 'cause my mum will always wait for others but they wouldn't even bother waiting for us. And my dad's sisters, who wanted to bring my granddad along for the trip, didn't even take care of him and dumped him with my dad, to go shopping. Ended up my dad can't go shopping 'cause my ahgong's in a wheelchair and it's difficult to move around in the mall. Super unfair. Like as if they just wanna act filial by 'bringing' ahgong along, but not looking after him. Bought like only 5 clothes in the 3 days trip.

JB is better. For one, it's only the 5 of us. And JB clothes are my type. Lol. It's like online shops or far east/bugis kind. But cheaper. Like you can get tops at RM25(around S$10). They usually sell it at 1 for RM29.90 and 2 for RM50. And the people at JB are generally nicer than at KL. KL shopkeepers are fierce and impatient. If you haggle the price and end up didn't buy from them, they'll show black face or even hit you. I swear I witness a shopkeeper hitting an Indian woman. Though I don't know what is the cause, but it's still scary!!! And then I witness a theft case at KL, but not in JB. And JB is so convenient! Took a bus from woodlands to JB. Less than half an hour and we reached the mall! No need to pay $200 to book a coach! Lol lol.

Some stuffs I bought from JB.

#truestory

2011-12-25T20:26:00.001+08:00

Maybe you're just scared, because for once in your life someone actually wants to be with you.

Are you pretty, cute or fun to be with?

2011-12-20T18:11:00.001+08:00

If you're not pretty, at least be cute.
If you're not cute, at least be fun.
If you're not fun, then all the best.

sweet memories bring tears

2011-12-12T16:26:00.000+08:00

Am i weird to be missing SRJC?
I miss going to school in the early morning and attending lectures and tutorials. I miss listening to my class craps/ suaning/ and whatnot. I miss going for breaks and seeing people sneaking snacks in class. I miss talking to my classmates and friends from other classes. I miss studying in school until 8ish 9. I miss camping in the library during exam periods. I miss the canteen food. I miss ice chocolate. I miss going for exams. Above all, i miss what i thought you were.

Photo journal - Life @ SRJC :)

2011-12-08T21:49:00.001+08:00

Life in SRJC

2011-11-30T12:40:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was probably the last day I'm wearing the SRJC uniform. I may seem happy that it's the last A level paper, but I don't really like the fact of 'graduating' from SRJC and leaving the school. As mushy as it sounds, SRJC is the best school I've ever attended so far. Although when there is a change in principal and I don't like her way of doing things, I still like SRJC as a whole. It is not as biased as my previous schools(though I admit it's a little biased sometimes). However, everyone was given an equal opportunity to take part in various events like srgce, osl, being the president of their CCAs, etc. everyone was given an opportunity to hold a leadership position. Though internship was only given to students with good results, it was based on prelim results and not O level or anything so we kind of can change our 'fate' if we want to take part in the internship. I'm really like this school a lot.

I must say that I've learnt a lot and grew a lot as a SRJC student. I'll always remember the times spent at SRJC. From srgce, one event that I'll never forget even after a year; osl, being a quiet person, yes, I've been an orientation leader and led a group of freshmen, though i didn't help much; internship @ a law firm, my first internship exposure and it was rather insightful being in small courts and seeing real life debate; Camp aspire, a leadership camp where we learn basic leadership skills and went through a torturous 4am workout; mugging @ SRJC, mugging was never my style of studying but SRJC's studying environment changed my perspective of that; and not forgetting my ECs, I didn't learn anything from them like duh, but they have definitely made my jc life an interesting one and made me look forward to school each day. ;)

All things will eventually come to an end and my journey in SRJC has ended. Shall post a photo journal of my SRJC life. :)

Dear Santa

2011-11-26T09:50:00.001+08:00

Dear Santa,

Please take note 'All I want for Christmas is him... (and like some clothes and food or whatever)'
Thanks in advance. ;)

?

2011-11-15T10:47:00.001+08:00

You said that when I die, nobody will be sad.

Goody-good

2011-11-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

Shall delicate a post to my ECs soon! haha! (Y)

Thus far

2011-11-12T18:00:00.001+08:00

1 week into the A levels and I'm already beaten. After every paper, I thought they're pretty much manageable, only to find my answers wrong online. Not that bad though, able to pass with a B or C I don't know. But some careless mistakes in maths are really killing me. I'm pinning all my hope on maths and things have to go this way. I think my chance of getting an A for maths is 50-50. Let's just hope it's the top 50. At least the next few weeks will be less hectic with only 1-3 papers max per week. (Y) and after next week, I'll be pretty done with As with only physics p3 and mcqs left and thereafter it's partaye! God. It doesn't even feel like A levels at all.

Guys>girls

2011-10-30T00:22:00.001+08:00

I always thought it's supposed to be girls before guys. Well, you've changed my perception of it.

China hooha

2011-10-22T13:19:00.001+08:00

I just wanna say something about yueyue's story. I don't know what the 18 passer-bys were thinking. And I'm pretty sure this doesn't only applies to china. If similar incidents happen in other countries, maybe there'll also be those '18 passer-bys'. One thing for sure is that I've read a news about a Singaporean man knocking down a child and he carried the child around looking for help, even to the extend of crying cause he was worried for the child. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think that Singaporean are more compassionate in this sense. At least we won china in terms of extending our help for others. I think sometimes society should stop looking at the wrong things that our generation are doing and instead pause and look at the positive things that we've done. I believe that the positive things we've done far outweighs the negative things. I mean, we are humans. And humans are not perfect. So don't expect a generation that only produces 'good' stuffs. Even so, there's no basis for comparison and the society will still find fault. I'm not finding fault in china here though, I'm just awed at how everyone is blaming china and everything but no one blames the society. No doubt, I'm still pissed at the 18 passer-bys and seeing the video of the parents crying and thanking the old lady just made me teared. Not to mention the 2 drivers that ran over yueyue even though the first driver clearly knew that yueyue is under his van. SHE IS ONLY 2 YEARS OLD!!! HOW DID YOU HAVE THE HEART TO KILL SUCH AN INNOCENT AND HELPLESS CHILD!!! I CAN'T EVEN!!! HER LIFE IS JUST STARTING TO SPROUT AND SHE'S JUST STARTING TO LEARN HOW TO WALK AND TALK. WHY DIDN'T YOU GIVE HER THE CHANCE TO LIVE LIFE?!!! YOU HORRIBLE CREEPS WITH NO HEART!!! LET'S JUST HOPE THAT KARMA WILL FIND YOU BACK.

This week

2011-10-15T10:07:00.001+08:00

Insomnia this entire week. :( plus pre-As was damn screwed. I thought they were supposed to be moral booster. End up diminishing all the confidence I'd gained from Prelims. What is this. :'( A levels in approx 3 weeks time. I'm really scared I can't make it with this kind of shitty performance in pre-As. I swear I'm studying harder than I'll ever do but it's still not showing. Sigh. And my life is so dramatic this whole week. I can't even differentiate between the truth and lies anymore. I don't even know how much more are they hiding from me. Or rather, how much I'm hiding from them. I hate lying to people i know. :/

2011-10-13T08:16:00.001+08:00

I’m literally in shock when a guy finds me attractive.

iPhone app

2011-10-01T23:38:00.001+08:00

For those of you who don't know, blogger came up with an app! (not sure when though, maybe I'm just slow) and that explains why I update my blog(and my private one) more frequently. Though I have yet to try uploading pictures. That's too much of a hassle and I'm just too lazy lol.

It's October already. 1 more month of mugging and praying before the As. (Oh my, really need to STOP being so slack as if As are next year :/)How fast can this get? It feels as if my own orientation was just over. Or even orientation 2011 was just yesterday. Or maybe to the extent that term 4 had just started. But no. It's gonna be term 4 week 4 next week, which is our last week of having lessons. And after that pre-As gonna come and after pre-As, our teachers will be leaving us alone to fight the As and die alone. Before I know it, As will just fly past me and 2011 will end! CAN TIME SLOW DOWN FOR A BIT WHILE I CATCH UP?!

FORMSPRING

2011-09-25T10:31:00.001+08:00

I don't really like formspring at first 'cause I don't understand the rationale behind it. It's like just people asking you questions and such. What's the purpose? But nonetheless, I signed up for it. For fun I guess. Heh. So... ASK ME QUESTIONS(though I still don't know why must people ask questions through social networks) AND FORMSPRING ME AT

www.formspring.me/tayziteng

Updates here and there

2011-09-23T23:46:00.003+08:00

Ok, this is super late but i went MBS like 2 weeks(?) ago! Haha! Overall experience was meh. We reached at around 12? Cause we requested for early check-in and then they told us the rooms are not ready yet. Kay, so we waited til 2pm, the actual stated check-in time and the rooms are STILL not ready yet. wtf. waited and waited and waited until 6PM! super waste of time! i could have completed 2 maths papers during that 6 hrs! *nerdy side of me speaking* they compensated us with a cake and vouchers. But don't they know time=money and once lost, can't take it back?! lol lol.

DIY-ed cupcakes at DTE! Quite fun but my cupcake like #fail only. =.=

Nothing much to shop there cause it's all high-end products and i'm not rich okay.

Kay, i'm blaming my cousin for intro-ing gmarket to me so now i'm kinda addicted to buying stuffs there cause it's cheap and nice. Then i start influencing people around me. Lol. They're gonna hate me. hahaha. Anyway, pink usb cable! Like chio only! So much nicer then the normal plain boring looking white usb. And it's only <$3! Saw a shop at Raffles MRT there selling at $7!

And spammed bought 2 bags lol.

Chio or what?! :D

YAYAYAY! I RAN 12 KM ON WILLRUN DAY! PERSONAL BEST! HAHA! AND I RAN MORE THAN SOME OF MY GUYS CLASSMATES! xD

Miao~

My results for prelims was okay. I swear it's only mediocre, not good enough to get me into a uni. *Fck the high education standards here.* I think many will curse me when i say my results are ok, just because i'm the top few in school. Like wth lol. I'm one of the top, not because i'm pro or what, but it's honestly because our school's standard is not that good yet. In my opinion, what is worthy to be called top students are those with As and Bs, or even better to get straight As. Of course, i don't think our school is capable of that yet, but there are a number with As and Bs. Maybe they should stop labeling people like me, with Cs and Ds and not a single A, a top student. At least, i can say that i'm contented with the fact that i've improved, way past my expectations. I only aimed for 50+ RP. (i lost faith after getting bloody 32RP for CT lol =.=) I don't know how did i get that amazing 20RP improvement but i hope it'll happen again for A Levels. I really need that.
Anyway, i'm seeing more J2s staying back in school to study. That's awesome. Just that i don't like J1s staying back to study though their promos is next week 'cause, 1. they took up our seats. =.= 2. it's only the promos. in J2, every exam(CT, MYE, Prelims) are ten times much worse that promos. 3. As are obviously more important than promos. and lastly, ok, i just don't really like the J1s lol.

18th and beyond

2011-08-25T12:27:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the emo posts. Shit happens.

Another random pictures post. Heh.

This camera damn cute right! I wanted to buy one for myself cause i love cameras. :/

Yep, the SRbear appeared again!!! The previous picture was taken from my phone. I hope you can see the difference in quality. If not idk whether to be glad that iPhone's camera is so powerful or be sad that my Olympus Pen sucks.

My presents! (L)

My 18th birthday:

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The following pictures contain extreme narcissism. You've been warned.

Fly like a G6~ My legs look plastic lol.

Hehe. Polaroid~ <3

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2011-08-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

All I wanted was someone who will not ignore me in front of their other friends and not someone who'll only find me when they can't find any of their friends. Why is it so hard to find one real true friend. It's like everytime I see pictures on Facebook, I get really jealous of other people's friendships. Not that I have no friends, but I need a one that'll make me feel appreciated. Maybe that's why I'm shutting people out. Cause when they ignore me, I don't see the need to try and befriend them. Maybe what I need is a boyfriend. lol. Whatever.

:'(

2011-08-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

When I get bored from studying, I'll start meddling with my phone. And today I was randomly browsing through the Facebook birthday list and realized it's my cousin's birthday tomorrow. Then I got fucking depressed for a while. I've never ever buy any birthday present for him before. The one and only thing I've given him was probably the message I wrote for him to get well. Now, I'll never have the chance to buy any presents for him anymore because he wouldn't be able to receive it.
Everytime I think bout how he's younger than me but he died earlier than me makes me think that life's a joke. On the surface, I may act like I'm not sad bout this. I mean who doesn't act right. But I'm not exactly sad. I don't know how to explain this queer feeling. I think only those in my position will understand.
Ok fuck. I fucking hate this weak side of me. Gotta act stronger. (Y)

Random pictures again :/

2011-08-21T17:23:00.000+08:00

As you all know, JC life isn't exactly very colourful. It's all study, eat, sleep and study more. So nothing much to say bout this.

SRJC bear. :)) Glad that i've bought this. It's cute, plus it's for charity. If i lose my badge in future, i still have one on this bear. HAHAHA.

My birthday presents! Thanks people! <3 AND I REALLY REALLY LIKE THE NOTE! HEH. ;)

Woo~ Hello kitty watch! Yep, the McDonald one! I missed the red and white one! Dang it! :(

Random

2011-08-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

1. Not really looking forward to my 18th birthday this year cause 12 aug happens to be the start of Prelims. And when everyone tells me that my birthday is coming, I just got reminded that Prelims are near and my stress level will rise more than proportionately. I need my results to get better by a whole lot, if not I'm fried.

2. Thanksgiving. It only reminds me of how much I mean to others. And I realized I've stopped bring my camera to school this year. Maybe ive gotten sick of being the one to provide photography services as if I'm people's fucking photographer. I just want someone to bring their camera up to me and ask me to take photos with them. Sounds stupid lol.

3. Hungry ghost festival. Hmmm. I kinda miss my uncle and cousin.

/pfft. Something's wrong with blogger draft.

2011-07-24T22:19:00.005+08:00

Oh yeah! Rockfest was quite long ago but i forgot to blog about it. Heh. The overall experience was meh. The soccer guys keep pushing people around and i almost fell down. Yep, they apologised, but then the pushing continues. wtv. The performance was mediocre. Anyway my main purpose was not to watching the people sing or rock or whatever lol.

I still think they should make this in the form of the band (i suddenly forgot what it is called lol). At least we can keep it. This piece of useless paper will just end up in the bin.

Anw, i won both bags from VJ! My aunt won one of them lah. Love both of these bags. I swear the boxy floral bag, which doesn't look nice from the outside, is cute from the inside lol. It looks a bit like luggage kind. Heh.

And my silver mirror! We were the first group to get this silver mirror and my class people go clap. On purpose. =.=

Life's good. My new ec is awesome and fit and tall and goodlooking and cute and sugar, spice and everything nice. :)

VIEW VIEW VIEW!

ChicksDiggs

2011-07-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

Last week, i bought some rings and a bracelet from ChicksDiggs! Love my new accessories and their service! Plus, their items are freaking affordable! I must say it did left a good impression in me, considering it's my first time patronizing their online shop. I will definitely buy again, but i guess it'll be after my As or something. Need to control.

I like this bracelet a lot! But why must my heart charm came off? :( I think that's the only disappointment i have with this shop.

Cute rabbit gold diamond ring. And this is only $4! Great deal! :)

Gosh, i suddenly like owl stuffs so i bought this ring. At first, i thought it was on reserved, but the shopkeeper gladly double checked for me if there's extra stock. Thank you for it. :)

I didn't buy this Guess ring cause i already bought like $20 worth of stuffs. But i really want it! If any of you wanna buy anything from this online shop, buy with me! Cause i have 15% discount and $5 off for the next $30 purchase and i don't think i'll spend $30 next time! But this is really nice leh. Plus there's one heart necklace also.

Random shots with my new accessories. :)) Picture is true to original item.

My sad and emo heart charm that broke off.

Items came in nicely wrapped! :)

Sorry, can't focus well. :/

Haircut + Sam!

2011-07-10T19:55:00.003+08:00

Went for a haircut + treatment just before school started! The entire session lasted for 2 freaking hours and i was bored to tears! I really don't want to go for another treatment anymore but it looks like my hair needs proper care to stay silky and healthy. xD And i think i looked younger after the haircut. Or maybe it's just my cui face. Judge it yourself, but don't need to tell me what you think of me cause i don't care eh eh eh eh eh~

Idk why there's this black black thing. So extra. :/

Oh! And by the way, i'm kinda a bit addicted to Sam Tsui's songs. His vocal is good. Go listen to 'Hold it against me', 'Don't want an ending', 'Just a dream' and 'Imagine'. Sigh. Why can't i have some decent talent like singing or dancing?! Darn those who can sing and dance! HAHAHA. Kay, i'm just jealous lah.

This song is awesome! It's my favourite song for more than a month! :DDD

Disclaimer: My favourite songs usually last < 1 month. USUALLY. The song has to have substance to be my favourite song. Heh.

Term 3

2011-07-02T18:49:00.002+08:00

First week of Term 3 went pretty well. At least now we end at 2plus 3 everyday and this gives me more time to actually get some work done. Glad that i finished my holiday homework cause more of my classmates are struggling with tutorials and holiday homework. :/

On a second note, i'm down for my class' monitoring scheme. Other classes don't even have this. And my result is better than the cohort average. Plus my class topped the cohort. =.= So now i must submit my weekly plan to my CT and make sure i do the work that i wrote down. :(

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Some random photos

The best biscuits on Earth! Haha!

This nice porridge is at Century Square basement. Go try! Their youtiao is nice! (Y)

2011-06-18T20:16:00.001+08:00

Went to Let's Sweet dessert buffet a few days back. Honestly, i don't think it's worth $20. Some food are nice, and the staffs are friendly. But overall, there's super limited choices and the food were not what i expected it to be. I thought there's gonna be more desserts like macarons, chocolate cakes, etc. But there's really none of those. I only liked the teriyaki pizza. Haha. :/

Alright, so talking about my holidays, i kinda think that i'm more hardworking this holiday. I have never finish any of my holiday homework before holidays end but now that there's 1 week left of holiday, I'm only left with 2 full maths papers. How awesome right? So impressed by myself. xD Hope i can continue this hardworking self at least til the end of As! So i guessed planning beforehand does work? :D

And why did blogger & Tumblr change layout? :(

Piece of my mind

2011-06-13T13:32:00.017+08:00

This whole sexist thing is getting on my nerves. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if my brother was not born. Maybe my life would have been better. But this doesn't mean I hate my brother. I love my brother. (Y) I just like to think of stuffs that will never happen. Idk. Maybe just for the fun of it. Heh.

On a serious note, I don't understand and never will, how this whole sexist thing came about. And mind you, most of the people who are responsible for it are women, against women. What sense does it make? Well, if it's in the past, I can understand the biasness towards guys. They have more strength and naturally they can help to plough land, chop wood, etc. But now? Do you need guys to help you to chop woods or farm lands? No. Then again, even if it's the past, being biased against females doesn't give you the right to kill baby girls! It's not even ethical in ANY sense! And depriving girls of rights to study and learn and scolding them for being stupid when you don't even give them the chance to learn? You are the stupid one. I thought this bias trend will get better. I mean it's the 21st century already. Yes, on the surface, women are getting more opportunities to study, get jobs, and not getting killed innocently. But apparently, this is only the surface of it. In actual fact, it's not getting any better.

Yes, this topic is annoying the hell out of me. But what makes me speechless is that females are not even standing on the same side as females. It's so disappointing.

2011-06-05T23:41:00.001+08:00

Mother's Day celebration + Grandma's birthday

Ate at some Thai restaurant at some hotel. The food doesn't suit me. :/

The only food that i liked. Nonya food. :)

Went for a fashion buffet + shopping yesterday with abby. It's was fun. I realised i'm only happy when i get to buy lots of clothes(1 dress, 7 shirts, 1 pair of slippers and 2 shirts for my bro and sis). Plus this time round, the stuffs are like so cheap. HAHAHA. What a materialistic girl.

First must camwhore. WOOHOO. xD

I told myself to just grab any dress i land my eyes on and this turn out to be a pretty awesome dress with nice floral prints and two-side pockets! Bonus is i can actually fit into the dress! :D

Duo-colour shirts! At first i grabbed the hot pink one but in the end i have some more time and space in my bag so i just stuffed the light green one into my bag and omfg the light green one turned out to match my skin colour cox we're both so fair. MWAHAHA. And the reverse side is light pink! Woots! *party around*

T-shirt prints~

Other loots from fashion buffet and shopping.

This was not from the fashion buffet. It's some guys shirt but i bought it for myself. LOL.

Mac's pink coke can and lucky charms cereals! YAYYY! <3

My Homework Plan for myself for the coming week. Let's just hope that i'll follow this plan.

I can't stand it...

2011-06-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

I can't stand it when people do things slowly. Like super slow that kind. I don't know why. Can't they just hurry up a bit? Don't they realise people are waiting for them? Wouldn't they feel paiseh about letting people wait? Maybe it's my problem lol. But i'm not changing my stand.

I can't stand it when my class people/teachers compare us with S01. Like come on la. I've been through 4H2s and i know it's not a fair comparison to begin with. How can you compare yourself with someone who's taking a heavier workload than you? The difference between H1 and H2 can be quite significant, and in our case, it's Econs, which involves much memorising and all that crap. Why bother to compare? They already win at the starting line. Furthermore, S01 is made up of people with <14/15 L1R5 and NO SPs. S02? Idk. Lousiest L1R5 maybe 16? 17? and SPs? I'm not trying to say that my class suck and i hate my class, no, okay. I just wish people would stop comparing.

I can't stand it when the people living right above me keeps on knocking the floor. Like damn annoying. They knock/scratch the floor for million times a day. And it happens in the morning, afternoon, night, midnight. I'm starting to wonder what kind of people lived up there. Are they crazy or what?

It's June

2011-06-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

Holiday.

HO YEAH!

Lacking Confidence. Again.

2011-05-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

When I say I’m ugly.

I’m serious. At times, don’t get me wrong, I think I’m a bit decent looking. But overall, I think I’m so unattractive. I’m not fishing for compliments. There are so many stunning girls, I can’t even compare. Whatever they do, whether it’s making silly faces,anything, they’re still pretty while doing it. Fuck. I wish I was more appealing. Honestly. -Tumblr

What's love?

2011-05-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

What's love?
That's a rather vague question.

Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
It's bullshit.

When two people get together, does that mean they love each other? Or when people who love each other don't get to be together. Then what?
The feelings will fade right? So when it fades, you break up with each other. What about the memories together? The moments spent together? Do we walk pass each other as though the other party was never a huge part of our lives before?
What about a person liking someone who doesn't share the same feeling? What do they do with the unappreciated feeling of theirs? And when they let go, will the other party come running back and all their feelings gushing back?

Either way, love's gonna hurt. As cliche as it sounds, you're just gonna find someone who's worth the pain. but for now, I'm gonna stop thinking about this crap and hit back to my books. :(

Pursuant to Section 1, Sub Section 1. Paragraph A, I hereby declare..

2011-05-08T23:48:00.001+08:00

GE ended yesterday. I can't believe i slept at 2+am just waiting for the results! And the announcer still talk so slow! I pity him though. Imagine repeating the same line everytime and if you make any mistake, the whole Singapore is watching. Stress max.

Honestly, who said Singapore youths are all having political apathy. Just take a look at Facebook, Twitter or even listening to some families. Even though the youths are not legal to vote yet, they are all debating about GE and who should lead Singapore and blah blah. They are pretty much more concern about Singapore's future than adults can ever imagine. The passion for this country. Political apathy not.

And there has been some sparks between PRO-PAP and PRO-OPPOSITION. Regardless of who wins, at the end of the day, we are all Singaporeans and all we ever wanted was to have a better future, a common goal. (I feel like a politician lol)

Kay, random, but time to make you guys hungry.

New flavor! Quite nice! Go try!

All time favourite.

BROWNIES!

2011-05-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Went for the routine checkup yesterday. My aunt saw how the dentist pulled out the wire and was damn shocked. Lol. Anyway one month passed just like that. What have I done in this one month? Nothing. Screw this. As are coming and I'm still doing nothing. :(

Anyway, yesterday was college day too. So I rushed to school after my appointment because they said must be seated at 2.15. Guess what? They only started at around 3! Freak. I could have eaten my lunch first y'all know?! So the whole session I was damn scared my stomach will make some weird noise. But lucky(and not exactly very lucky), CG was not seating anywhere near me. But in the end, my stomach was being a really good stomach that day and never make any sound. Haha. Then the ground-breaking was...really unnecessary. But I must thank it for giving me a chance to stalk CG. Yes, I feel like a total stalker. I've actually stooped to this level. SIGH.

Then went plaza sing. There's a new shop that sells pink stuffs! But very ex. :(

And I want BROWNIES!!! :DDD

Gone with the wind.

2011-04-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

Last Friday, he left.
I'm mad.
I'm at mad myself.
We were still discussing about him on Thursday and I wanted to say I want to visit him on Friday after school.
I didn't.
I don't know why I didn't.
Now I'm full of regrets.
If only I'm caring enough to visit him.
The last time I saw him was months ago. Most probably during new year.
I should have spend more time gambling with him.
And I stayed with him and my grandparents when I was young so he dotes on me most among my siblings.
Whenever I go to my grandparents house, he'll say to me :没有叫舅舅.
I kinda miss that.
I know originally he wanted to pay for my braces but since my aunt already paid for it, he just left me some money.
I thought of how he still think of me, and I didnt even care a shit about him, I'll blame myself for it.
At first I couldn't believe that he left. But after seeing him being cremated, all's gone.
It'll take some time. But I believe I'll get through this like how I've accepted my cousin's death.
I miss you, 舅舅. :(

2011-04-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

Is there something wrong with photobucket? It's screwing up my backgrou template. =.=

Rants

2011-04-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

Back again! I realised i blog lesser and lesser now. SIGH.

Alright so, Friday marks the end of my OSL job! YAY! No more embarrassing moments/dancing in front of the whole bloody school. As much as i enjoyed being an OSL, i hate dancing in front of uhm, people, especially since i suck at it. :( 1600+ people stared at me on Friday. DANCING. ZOMG. Horrible memory. On a side note, i get to be quite near to my new eyecandy, which i conveniently termed him 'cute guy'. HAHAHA. (Y) I think if chopstick doesn't do anything, I'M GONNA FORGET HIM FOR REAL! He's like disappearing in my life! >:(

Oh and PW. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! Didn't waste my entire J1 life for nothing! We got A!!! :D Ok, my school achieved like 89.9% As, so me getting A is like bleh. But still, at least i feel like i've got the results i deserved. And i know a lot of schools, they're like saying 'SR 89.9% As, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! Did the school spoon-feed??? It's internal marking! At least they know how to help their students.' this kind of thing. I mean like come on lah. Why are you guys even saying this? Do you hear us saying 'BlahJC SCORED STRAIGHT As?! OMFG!'. NO. I know we are not academically strong as other JCs, but that doesn't mean we can't score in other subjects like PW. PW, by the way, is a test of your project work skills, how you work with others, and the way you present your ideas. I don't know. I don't see the link here. Is it that other JCs can score thousands of As and no one gets so worked up, but as long as it's SR, it's seems like a no-no to score As? Why can't people believe that the A came from our own hard work, and not internal work by teachers or whatsoever? It's not like we didn't put in any hard work alright? Do you guys know how much time and effort we put in trying to polish up our oral presentation skills? Anyone knows how many drafts we had for each and every sections? Anyone knows how long we took to come up with new and innovative ideas and make sure that it's original and unique? Anyone knows how hard we've tried to make sure our work are best because we know we're being compared to other better schools? No. No, nobody knows. So why judge when you guys do not know the full story behind it. Don't make any judgement or assumption, because you guys don't know anything about us. I don't know why, but i find it really unfair when people judge SR just because we're a 15 pointer JC.

Backkk

2011-04-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

"he’s just a boy… that i caught eyes with out of more than a hundred people on the first day of school, the one i look forward to seeing when i enter school, he’s the reason i wake up early in the morning to look pretty for, the one i get mad at for missing school, but the one that brings a smile on my face during a bad day. he’s the one that cause me my breakdowns. But most importantly, he’s just a boy, i’m falling head over heels for. -Tumblr "

Chanced upon this quote in Tumblr and it applies to me so bloody much. Especially the part about school. Oh wells, i'm now at pH level 5. Which means it'll reach pH 7 soon and i'll feel neutral about him. HAHAHA. Chemistry. (Y)

'holiday'

2011-03-20T21:45:00.001+08:00

I didn't have any chance to rest properly this holiday, thus defeating it's so-called purpose of giving us a 'break'

I had lessons for the first three days and that's like already half of the holidays gone. Anyway I didn't get to go for the third day, when the lesson's only 1 hour!!! Cox I fell sick. Crazy fever and headache for 3 days. Got slightly better on Friday, then who knows, bam! Sore throat. And then cough. And now I'm having slight diarrhea. Irritating ttm. How come I'm always sick during the holidays?! :(

Worse is I have yet to finish my homework. You know, when you're sick, your rate of doing homework is just a quarter of your normal performance cox the illness will make you weak and the drowsy medicine too. Oh wells, I definitely wouldn't be able to finish the homework by tonight and I'm just gonna try and do what I can. (Y)

Common test is over!

2011-03-13T14:53:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!

Common test is finally overrr!!! Shall worry about the results later. :/
But now that it's over, i'm damn bored! I have no plans or anything! :(

Anyway, I went to NUS Open House with Huiying yesterday! There's like a lot of ppl and the weather's not helping! :/ And i saw my school people. -.- But on the brighter side, i've gotten lots of brochures that can help me understand uni life better! And i bought a tee and the badge! I don't know why i bought it but i just bought it anyway and it's like damn cool! xD

They're giving out sweets at the Open House!

Quite awesome week :)

2011-03-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

So much happened this week! Okay, not really a lot, mainly it's about A levels. -.-

Alright, so this week marks the end of NAPFA for me! Say hi to fatter me! I'm not gonna exercise much unless the school forces me. >:) oh and I think I've developed a bit of leg muscles. How awesome. And ugly. :/ Kay, anyway, no more NAPFA is like the greatest news on earth. And to think that my PE teacher actually ran my 2.4 with me! 0.0 I think she damn nice can!(although she's so fit 2.4 is nothing to her=.=) I will never reach her level of awesomeness, although i already am. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ -> thus is awesome beyond words! xD

And the release of A level results! Omg, how can that 16 pointer guy get 90 rank points(by the way, it's the perfect score)?! Like seriously! I felt so ashamed! Kay, I am now slightly more motivated to get my perfect score. One reason why I always aim high is because i always get below my aim. -.- I'll be happy if I can even get 80 point and above. And at least have my name up the board of glory, for once. And H1 Chinese can only add 1 point to my overall. Well if I get 90 points(HAHAHA!), then the points from Chinese are useless. Alright, i'm on my way to get my 90 rank points now! Back to mugging!

2011-03-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

Someone totally spoilt my mood for getting back my awesome Chinese A level result today. Yes, it's A for Awesome. Get it? xD if I get a B or any worse, I should totally give up on my life mannn. Alright, enough of the boasting(haha), back to topic. Actually I'm pretty fine being left alone. I mean I'd rather do stuffs alone cox I don't have to think of why others might feel. By the way, they don't even give a damn about me, why am I the one caring? Conclusion: life sucks.

2011-03-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

Getting back Chinese A level results tomorrow. Starting to feel kind of uneasy now. :S

I don't know why but when people say that I'll sure get A, I'll get more paranoid instead. I think I'm feeling damn scared. What if I don't get A? Everyone's expectation VS reality. Yeah. GP influence. (Y) but anywayyy, if I don't get A ppl, don't freak out. I warned you, I screwed up my composition.

2011-02-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

I don't know what is wrong with me these days. I've been so easily annoyed by the people around me. My classmates, friends and even my neighbors. It's like i'm going through this phase in life where I don't even know what my problem is. I get emotional easily and I just don't feel like talking to everyone sometimes. Maybe it's some guy or some friend or the fact that common test is 2 weeks away. I'm just feeling damn crappy. K. Bye.

Orientation 2011

2011-02-04T23:04:00.001+08:00

Although i always say that orientation suck and i hate my CG and everything, but now that orientation 2011 is over, I KINDA MISS IT ALREADYYY!!! :(

Well, first when i joined as an OSL, i was kinda quiet and emo-ish (what to expect huh). But now it's like idk, i think i've became a little more vocal. (Y) Although i know i never lead the OG or CG before, but at least i tried talking to people in small groups and cheered as a group. It's like I HAVE NEVER DONE THESE BEFORE! :O

I know that some people are annoyed and saying that i didn't do anything. But heck, i just didn't lead and speak to them as a big group and that doesn't define i never do anything. Don't make me feel guilty okayyy.

Honestly, i like my OG better. (Y) They are nicer people to talk to. Idk but my CG gives me the feeling that they owned the school. Sometimes i just want to stop bothering about them and emo at one corner. :/

Now that orientation is over, i can't help but keep on saying all the different houses cheers to myself even when i'm at home. I think i'm addicted to the cheers already. xD And i think orientation ended on a good note. It didn't rain for SR picnic! (Y) But the picnic like kinda fail lol. The classes don't even have time to finish half of the food they brought. -.-

And yes! Aquila got 2nd! Draco was 1st and i think they deserved it. They're kinda awesome. But Aquila was not bad either! Although i think our OSLs are the softest among the houses, but our freshmen didn't let us down! (Y) GONNA MISS ORIENTATION. :'(

Do you ever feel, like a sparetyre?

2011-02-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

Why is it that everytime you needed company, I'm always there.

But when I'm alone, where were you?

2011-01-31T23:31:00.000+08:00

What's up people?

Super busy with orientation now!

hectic week!

2011-01-16T19:19:00.001+08:00

So lessons started this week and everyday there's something for me to attend! :(

Monday
After all the admin briefings, school ended at around 1. I thought i could go home early and sleep, but no! I have Lijiang meeting after that at 2.30. So i waited and waited and waited. We did MORE REFLECTIONS. :( But we were given another Lijiang book! It's more like a planner, with all our Lijiang pictures inside. :)) But i was feeling horrible that day so i didnt get to enjoy the last of Lijiang meeting proper. :( It ended at around 4-ish, 5 i guess, and it's raining. :(

Tuesday
Lessons and lectures ALL RESUMED. :( Damn sian. After school i still need to stay back for OSL training until 5-ish, 6. But i guess the training is quite productive? At least we were so much better than the previous time.

Wednesday
Had to go for Library meeting. Boring as usual. Plus, it's admin stuffs, which adds on to the boring-ness. Didn't pay attention as usual. :p

Thursday
Lijiang BBQ. I thought it was supposed to be fun... I wanted to like help but hs and sm didn't want to so i was like okay... and then i felt bad for taking the food without helping and so i only ate like damn little. Basically spending the time bonding with hs instead of with the whole lj team. -.- and i think i left a bad impression in someone. But heck. :/

Friday
Outdoor PE. It was quite fun actually. Our class cheered each other on at each station, and we totally pwned s3 for all 4 stations. But i think the best thing was actually getting to know more about the people in my class and seeing us helping each other out. :) Even if someone lost the round, we did not blame them. And seeing people volunteering. One word: AWESOME.

Saturday
OSL training AGAIN. Bleh. And it was tiring man. We did 2 rounds of games(one is scavenger hunt and the other i forgot lol) and learnt the songs and dance. Imagine 2-3 hours of games+shouting X 2 + 1hr dancing and singing + house time + briefings = tiring. By the end of the day, Aquila was like...some were sleeping, some stoning, some lying on the floor, dying. We termed ourselves DEAD BIRDS. (Y) And some people just have to irritate and piss me off. Annoying bunch of senseless people.
And i reached home at around 6+ and choing-ed my Physics homework. The choinging continued til today afternoon. Crazy shit. It's supposingly HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. haha.

2011-01-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

It's days like this that makes me wonder about my existence in this world.

Why treat me like trash?

i'm an osl! xD

2011-01-05T19:56:00.001+08:00

School starts on the 10th but it started early for me. :(

Had to go to school early at 9(but i reached at 8.30-.-) yesterday for OSL training. Basically, i think it was kinda fun i guess. Just that our house seems a bit dead. Speaking of which, i still think it's kinda stupid to re-allocate the houses to us, just like orientation time. So i've been through and liked Orion, Pegasus and will like Aquila. :)

Another training session this Saturday. Hope i wouldn't forget the Walk-In and cheers. :p

a new year, a new start

2010-12-31T13:02:00.000+08:00

So 2010 is coming to an end and 2011 is approaching. Remember when 2010 came, everyone was discussing how to pronounce 2010 as. Whether it's twenty-ten or two-zero-one-zero. I prefer twenty-ten. :)

Personally, i felt that 2010 was rather fast, and eventful. Everything happened and was gone. From how I'm afraid of my O levels results, to the choosing of schools and to the actual school appointment. Then how i dread the first day of school, in a totally new environment, whether will i cope and make friends. To the first test, quiz and exam. How i managed to scrape pass every subject for MYE and still got reasonably good results, at least for my school. And regrets for not studying hard enough for MYE and determined to study well for Promos, of course, i didn't. Seeing everyone getting promoted, advanced, retained, re-exam and all. The next major thing was SRGCE, which i was kinda looking forward to at first. The preparation and rehearsals. Then came the real thing. And the next thing i knew, zoom, it's over. And the passing of certain family members. Then internship, which was a bore. And Hongkong trip once again. Massive shopping trip. And now that every major thing is over, it's time for me to chiong homework again, which was kind of a mission impossible. And i'll definitely bring these homework with me to 2011.

Things i need to get in me in 2011.
1. STUDY STUDY AND STUDY.
2. Don't be annoyed so easily.
3. Sleep when i should, don't let any thoughts linger in my mind.
4. Spend less time on social networks.
5. DON'T. EVER. FALL. FOR. ANYONE. AGAIN.

Soon, 2010 will close for real. The memories kept save in me.

2nd.

2010-12-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

Just got my piercing! Heh. But now idk what to do cox I can only take out the ear ring after a month and that means I still need to wear it when school reopens. And you know the annoying school rule of not having more than one pair of ear rings. Worse is there's gonna be a APG check during the first week of school. :( but for now, I'm happy. :D next will be my braces. I hope it wouldnt take long. :/

a season worth remembering

2010-12-25T22:57:00.004+08:00

Though it's a bit late, but

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!! :D

LIJIANG 2010

2010-12-19T13:36:00.003+08:00

I guess if i start recollecting everything from Day 1 to Day 8, it'll take me million of days. So i'll just mention some of the things worth mentioning. I've yet to get all the pictures so i'll just update when necessary.
P.S : Some photos not by me. xD

Things i've learnt from SRGCE Lijiang trip :

1. China's houses are very ancient and nice.

2. China's sceneries are beautiful.

3. The villagers, although not as affluent as us, they lead a happier life than us.

Things i'll miss in the Lijiang trip :

1. The crappy meals we had and the bus rides.

2. The village experience and the kids.

3. The horse riding experience.

4. Tiger Leaping Gorge.

5. The pretty cultural pieces and the rush shopping.

6. The train ride.

7. Group 5A.

2010-12-15T20:28:00.003+08:00

Will update about my awesome Lijiang trip after i have all the photos. I just realised i have less than 5 photos of me and others in my camera. First time. -.-

2010-12-13T15:35:00.002+08:00

It was the last time i saw him.

heh :)

2010-12-05T18:08:00.004+08:00

I should be at lijiang now! :D

Miss me? xD

Last update?

2010-12-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

It's finally Lijiang's turn soon! :D

Actually i wanted to go lijiang because of the ocip, not because of the trek. So, i kind of regretted signing up for lijiang cause of all the training shit. -.- Well, i'm just going to have fun at the schools and cry during the trek! Hope i wouldn't die at Tiger Leaping Gorge!

We'll be splitted into 2 different buses. I don't really like the people in my bus. I like the other bus. :/
And i like my Lijiang logbook! HAHA. xD

Oh and mr ang said there'll only be bottled water and tea for the whole 8 days!!! Kill me pls! I don't like tea, so that means i need to survive 8 days with only PLAIN WATER! x( and he said the teachers will be nagging at us to eat vegetables! NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE VEGETABLES!!! x(

Life.

2010-11-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

What's life?

And what's death?

I don't think anyone can answer these. Not even the dictionary.

It's hard to predict life and death, isn't it? I'd just received news yesterday saying my mum's uncle was hospitalised and today my mum said he died. Cause of death? Stroke. So sudden right? No signs, no nothing. Gone just like that. And my aunt's dad died a few days back. Cancer. Yes, it's kind of expected but still, no one knows when will he go. No preparation. My uncle was diagnosed with cancer too. I just hope he'll survive. And my cousin had an operation and is in critical condition now. He lost too much blood. I hope he'll pull through too.

When facing death, everyone is helpless. It'll be a lie if i say i'm not afraid of the day i die.
Yes, i am.
Very.
If i die tomorrow, will you be sad?

DECEMBER - A BUSY MONTH

2010-11-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

As you all know, teachers LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE to give homework during the holidays. And by homework, i mean, piles and piles of homework, most of which they wouldn't even mark or see. -.- So, i don't understand why they give homework in the first place. And they gave it only last Thursday/ Friday when i need to rush lj stuffs. ANNOYING. So i'm supposed to complete the homework by 10 Jan. But take a look at my Dec schedule :

The circled/ star-ed dates are those i'm not free. And i don't think i can complete any homework this week cox i need to pack for my trip, and 19th i need to pack for my another trip. That means, i can only start chionging my homework on the 25th, around 10+ days for me to complete ALL my homework. Sucky much? :( And i think we're going on some family trip/outing sometime on the last week of Dec. Which means lesser time for homework yet again. -.-

lijiang

2010-11-29T21:52:00.001+08:00

Wow. My last post was a week ago... :/

Wells, had the last physical (as in MUST carry loads) last Saturday! YAY! But, omfg, i nearly died. :( Had to climb like ten thousand flight of stairs is hell. And i had 3 blisters after that. No wonder i can't walk properly during the second half of the trek. -.- My mum was like asking when will our teachers stop torturing us. I want to know too. :/ And my mum and aunt are constantly 'helping' me to pack my luggage. Basically, they just stuffed lots of junk (to me) things inside and hell lots of medication, as if i'm going to die there. -.- I'M FLYING OFF IN 6 DAYS TIME! YAY!!! FINALLY IT'S GOING TO BE LIJIANG'S TURN! :D

Today we had to go back to school for lijiang again. Briefing and then we were taught mass dance (again right? :/) AND I HATE MY PARTNER. THAT ANNOYING SHIT. >:( The dance was okay, i guess, just the couple part, i always don't know how to turn out (since orientation days) lol. Then our group had to teach the people chicken dance. I think some of them know it better than i do. -.- I get confused sometimes when the music gets too fast. -.- And we sort of screwed it up cox the person in-charge of teaching the chicken dance isn't here... And then it was a scolding session by the teachers. :/ After that we break and our group did the varnishing of the planks. It was quite ok, just that after that our hands are mad sticky and the varnish can't be wash off. So now my hands smell of varnish. -.- Then i went for CCA (YAY!), though it was more like a complaining-bout-lj-stuff session. xD

Definitely not the day i wanted

2010-11-22T23:00:00.001+08:00

I hate this day as much as i anticipated it to come. We get to know our class allocation for 2011 and actually spent 30 mins in the new class. WTF that was the most awkward 30 mins in my whole SRJC life. Not that i don't like the class, but i will love it more if :
1. AWESOMEABBY and Whitty is in that class.
2. There's an equal number of guys and girls.
3. There wouldn't be some undesirables.

Speaking of number 2, i once said that 1S01 had only 7 girls, out of 22 people. I was kinda sad about it. But now?! 3 girls out of like around 20 people? SHOULD I GO AND JUMP DOWN OR SOMETHING?! And 3 is an odd number. I foresee awkward group members next year. Actually I'm awkward around almost everyone, except for people I'm super close to lol. And my attempt-to-change exercise failed terribly. So... I HOPE THE TWO GIRLS WILL COME AND TALK TO ME! They were together today. But i know it'll be weird for everyone. :( AND MY CLASS NO HOT GUYS. WALAO. MAJOR DEPRESSION.

And most of the class people seems like muggers! Crap, I'm going to be the last in class or something already. Not that i mind, but being in a class full of muggers(mind you, now it's not only one), it's damn pressurizing! Imagine in class, the teacher ask some questions and EVERYONE knows the answer... except me. OMGWTFSTOPTHINKINGTHISISDEPRESSINGIMGONNADIE!

And our CT will be our GP teacher. Shit. GP is definitely not my subject. :/

I'm not surprised if i develop depression lol.

2011 is going to be a tough year for me. :((((((((

My first proper post in thousand years.

2010-11-20T22:11:00.010+08:00

Went for CIP at AWWA Home somewhere near Bowen Sec. :)

There are some times which are just plain SUPER DUPER boring and we're like falling asleep. -.- But there's like a sudden hype going on when it comes to the badge and the prizes lol. We're crazy and weird. (Y) :)

And some guy come and ask us if we wanted balloons and everyone started shouting I WANT! lol. Forever young~ xD

And i saw ppl writing on their balloons so i copycat and wrote my SHINee! <3

AND KEY IS NOT UGLY!!! >:(

Sian, i looked so ugly nowadays. D:

Then they asked us to help give out balloons. Well... as you can see, there's hardly any soul so it's camwhoring time. (Y)

My balloons tangled together and we spent super long trying to untangle it cox i don't wanna let go of my KEY! :(

Spot the 2 pathetic balloons flying.

My photography skills rocks! (Y) :D

I put my KEY balloon on my chair together with my bag and idk who's that idiot who go and extra to go and tie my KEY balloon together with another balloon in front of the stall. Then there's this boy, i don't blame him cox he's like special, keep wanting the balloons and they cut it for him. THEY FREAKING CUT MY KEY BALLOON AND GAVE IT TO HIM!!! I MEAN THERE'S LIKE SO MANY THOUSAND BALLOONS, WHY TAKE MINE?!?!?!?! Then after they cut it, he don't want it already. -.- and they kinda stuff it into his hands and guess what? he released them. HE FREAKING RELEASE MY KEY BALLOON!!! I MEAN THERE'S LIKE SO MANY THOUSAND BALLOONS, WHY TAKE MINE, CUT MINE AND WORSE RELEASE MINE?!?!?!?! Seeing my KEY balloon flying away from me = :'( + heartbreak

a deal.

2010-11-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

I just hope that everything stays as it is now. I don't want anything to change. Please, just stay as what you are. Don't, ever, ever, break me.

Random, yes.

2010-11-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

Some stuffs i bought. Haven't been shopping since a zillion years ago. :(

lol lol. My failed chair. xD

Super uber cool techo.

And the food is not bad too.

THISSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When laziness strikes

2010-11-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

I have some pictures with me but i'm too lazy to upload. Will find some day when i'm not too lazy and upload every random pictures i have. Blame my phone with no bluetooth.
I'm also too lazy to update. :/

Sixbillionsecrets is my new favourite website. (Y)

Le Love

2010-11-11T23:51:00.001+08:00

Why is it that even the prettiest, nicest, most out going people can't find love? It kills me to know that there are people right now so happy and in love with their significant other and I have no one. I'm alone and I hate it. I just want to be someone's something, is that too much to ask for? I want to show someone the love I have weld up inside of me and to make someone feel happy and the receive the same. Guys these days it seems just want someone because they don't want to be alone, not because there are any feelings involved and that's not what I want. I just want someone to fall in love with who I am, as I am. I just want to share my love with someone special and have someone I can think of before I go to sleep and wake up knowing things haven't changed.

But one thing I learned from love and from craving it is, if you don't expect it from anyone then you'll never be disappointed.

2010-11-09T23:12:00.004+08:00

Some words are better

left unsaid.

My life is a screwed up piece of shit.

2010-11-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

I guess ever since i was born, you never liked me. I was never your priority. Whenever i asked you to buy something, you'll either forget about it or take a super long time to get it. You keep on nagging at my results when obviously i'm the best in the family. Even when my teachers are happy about my results, all you said was not good enough. AND WHEN I'M SO STRESSED UP FOR OP TOMORROW, ALL I WANTED IS FOR YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU JUST HAVE TO ASK ME RUBBISH QUESTIONS TO WHICH I ALREADY ANSWERED YOU SO MANY TIMES. THANKS FOR YOUR ENCOURAGMENT. I'M SO GOING TO DO WELL FOR OP TOMORROW.

A freak bite me!

2010-11-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

IDK whether i'm dreaming or it's real. Ok, it's better to assume it's a dream.

I dreamt that i touched my arm cox it's damn itchy and i felt something like a mosquito bite. A HUGE mosquito bite. Like SUPER HUGE!

It's roughly the size of this: (see below)

Then the next morning i woke up, i saw a something like mosquito bite on my arm.

A red dot like this:

So,

AM I DREAMING OR NOT?!

If it's real, WHERE GOT MOSQUITO BITE SO HUGE?!

If it's a dream, then why is there a red mosquito bite when i woke up?! It's still there on my arm, i swear.

I think of death.

2010-11-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

Something must be very wrong with me.

I'm screwed.

2010-10-28T21:42:00.001+08:00

I practically have no time during the Dec holidays and maybe January. First, i'm going SRGCE and HK during the Dec holidays and they both took up around 2 weeks. Then, i have internship during the hols. And then again, i have to go OSL camp (or idk what they'll have) during most prob January. How to revise J1 work and chiong Physics? I'm screwed. REALLY SCREWED.

On a brighter note, Chinese lessons ended!!! :DDD But i'm kinda afraid i can't get A judging from my performance these days. :(((((((((((((((((

:((((((((((((

2010-10-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

The world-breaking series of unfortunate events just happened to me.

1. I officially dropped Econs. One part of me wanted to drop, but one part of me doesn't. And i took a super duper long time to decide between Physics or Econs. I hope i wouldn't regret or anything. :/

2. I don't know why but i'm suddenly pissed at someone. Everything she does just pisses me off. Ok, i'm just being weird.

3. Key is sad and sick. JONGKEY is over. I mean, i don't really mind jjong having a gf, but what saddens me was how he ignored Key and the part where Key is sad and all, though i really hope it's not true.

10K baby

2010-10-25T22:04:00.001+08:00

Nike City Race 2010 yesterday. I'm so proud of myself yo! I ran 10K! xD I think i finished it in 1hr20mins plus plus, if i'm not wrong lol. And my muscles doesn't ache[that badly], surprisingly.

My eyebrows looked freaking weird. haha! xD

You see that? "NIKE CITY 10K SG 2010 FINISHER"!

D-tag.

From Michelle's cam. :))

I was attempting to take a photo of the place with all these lime green people but the Sun was so bright i couldn't see my phone screen, thus explaining the finger at the bottom right hand. =.= But at least there's rule of third. xD

Random M&Ns. I prefer the peanut one!!! :D

Bored people love camwhore. (Y)

I don't know why but i found this on Tumblr and it totally describes me. TOTALLY.

2010-10-24T22:46:00.005+08:00

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic who’s too afraid to fall herself. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems. I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I love to think rather than talk. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.

Just A Little Bit Moody

2010-10-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

So, we got back our results and idk whether to feel happy or sad. I really don't want 1S01 to disperse just like that. Next year, there's gonna be <8 people in the class. And i'm one of those being forced to leave. So now i'm faced with a dilemma of PHYSICS OR ECONS. I hate this question all over again. I have to choose my internship programme too. So many decisions to be made this week. I have no idea how to.

Sometimes i just wanted to comfort some people but idk how. It's like, i don't know. I'll feel damn bad that I'm not able to do anything to make them feel better, help them. Urgh, i suck. And i rather people cry their problems out because at least i can pass them tissue or something. But when they bottle up everything[though i'm also guilty of bottling up everything :/], it's just so difficult to enter their hearts. I just hope my friends know that i do love them even though i don't show it.

I think the lessons this week added up to my moody-ness.
2 hours of MT lectures everyday + 3-6hrs PW lessons for the rest of the day + my laptop can't access internet in school for idk what weird mysterious reason + abby's at level 1 and i'm at level 2 = cranky days

ANTISOCIALFTW

2010-10-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

I know i suck at it, but at least i've done my best.
I can't deny the fact that i'm damn antisocial.
So here i am, sick of trying to change myself.
And done trying.
Actually, i don't mind being outcast.
In fact, i love it when i'm alone by myself.
And i know the whole world hates me for this.

Rants

2010-10-15T23:23:00.001+08:00

Promos are over and i thought i have time to watch SHINee's vids.

But NO!
I have to do pw.

Now, my life sucks or what? I've done over 10 DRAFTS for the 2 chapters i'm working on. So, in total it's 20 drafts. fml. I don't think other groups did that much. The worst thing was, i find myself walking in circles. Meaning, the drafts keep changing here and there and eventually back to the old one. =.= And what's worse was she only told me to change A LOT of stuffs today when we have to hand up our final WR on Monday. And she totally ignored our group for 2 freaking hours and attended to other groups. Greatttt.

Now i kinda regretted signing up for Nike Race 2010 cox i find myself feeling tired even after 2K! How the hell am i going to complete 10K in 1hr 30mins?! I'm worried + freaked out = :((((((((((
And yeah, idk why, emoness caught me again. Well... I'm forever emo... but i rarely show it. Ok, fine, idk what i'm talking about. Tomorrow i have to wake up at 5plus to go to some ulu place to trek. So bye. I'm gonna sleep. Bye PW.

SPELL AMAZING

2010-10-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

I LOVE TODAY!!!

I mean i love Physics lecture today. Heh. Omg, it's like so freaking awesome! And i actually found out an amazing fun fact just by observing people. I'm good at this man. :))

I can't get over the amazing side-view.

K, back to pw. Damn.
**Oh! Omg, i actually dreamt about pw. It's not a nice dream at all. Think it's driving me crazy soon.**

2010-10-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

So i was dragged to Orchard Central to have this chocolate thingy.

No, i didn't have this chocolate heels above. It was a display. -.-

Though this cost a bomb, but it's nice. :))

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And ommo, you guys should just go and watch 'Hello' by SHINee. It's hella nice! :DDDD

Long weekend ahead! YAY! YAY! YAY! ♥

NOMONEYNOMONEYNOMONEY

2010-10-04T20:46:00.001+08:00

Now that promos are over[to be exact, it's tomorrow], i'm gonna find time to go shopping!!! ♥

List of stuffs i'll probably get if i can.

1. Acid wash jeggings.

I've been wanting to get a jegging since idk when. But somehow i can't find those tattered ones. :(

2. Cute printed dresses!!!

I realised that i have a pathetic 2 dresses in my wardrobe. I need moreeeee and say bye bye to plain old school tees. :D

3. Gladiator sandals

K, i admit i had one before but have since got bored of it. I liked this one above. :))

4. Two way button high waist shorts

I NEED.

5. Mulberry Alexa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, i did say i'll get it if i can. But i doubt i'll be able to get this baby above. :((((((((((((((

6. Pullover!!!

Another NEED. And this one above is awesome. :DDDDDDD

7. Skinnies

Not much of silk but black will do. Black is sexy yo!

8. Vans

Light pink, red or dark purple totally rock socks. :D

Have a to-do-list too. But most of the ideas are with abbyshit and i'm lazy to recall. xD

That sums up all!

Credits to google.

Studying makes you dumb

2010-10-03T16:13:00.005+08:00

Yes, it does.

My Life.

2010-10-03T01:17:00.004+08:00

FML.

YAY!

2010-10-01T21:19:00.003+08:00

1. Promos are 'OVER'!!! I don't care if there's still the freaking MCQs next week. IT'S OVERRRRRR!!! I SURVIVED 5 DAYS OF CRAZY STUDYING AND WRITING! I swear i didn't study THAT hard for MYEs. Dah.

2. New template like finally. Actually i was kinda sick of the old one but was too lazy to change it. Finally it's done. But i think there's something wrong with the avatar and there's no date. Bear with it until i'm not so lazy to change it. xD At least it's PINKKKKK *flips hair in the most bimbotic way* :D
OH AND CLICK ON BLABBERINGS AND COMMENT, MY BIMBOTIC FRIENDS!!! :D

3. K, idk whether it's YAY for this. Promos over, but here comes PW and Cheena. I swear i hate them both. Can't wait to get rid of them all.

4. Shopping tomorrow! Can't wait! Wheeeeeee!

5. I love school. :)))))))))))))))

2010-09-23T23:06:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Gonna post a list of things to do after promos soon, maybe after promos?

2010-09-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

Promos next week. I'm doomed. I should start considering which subject to drop. (Y)

2010-09-14T23:29:00.001+08:00

Been feeling weird these days. Guess i'm dying. :(

2010-09-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

This song made me teared. Just thought you would like to know.

"In Another Life"

I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life

In another life.

2010-09-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

Been sick for the past few days. Sure it's during the holidays but there's lessons! I started falling sick on Monday which happened to have Chinese test and our teacher's so great that he didn't tell us. Guess it's the first time i stared at the paper for super long period of time thinking of how to do the paper. :/ Went to the doctor and he gave me 2 days of MC. What's worse is there's test on these 2 days. -.- Nonetheless, i went to school cox i thought i was fine. But somehow i sort of screwed up my tests cox of stupid/dumb/senseless mistakes. And apparently, someone took this chance and blamed me for causing her to fall sick too. Like seriously, i think i caught the virus from you first! Blame yourself for being so weak. And ain't you glad you can skip tests again and get the qns from ur friends so that you can do better? Anyway, now the fever's gone but i seemed to have headache. Damn. And i think my fever's coming up again. And i have PW stuffs to do but my head's pounding real hard. HOW? :(

And yepps, my tagbox is gone cox there's so many fckers out there who's actually trying to advertise their stuffs by tagging on the tagbox WITH their links. I'm not so dumb. REST IN PEACE.

Damn, my headache!!! :((((((((((

2010-09-05T11:36:00.001+08:00

Tell me,

What's life?

2010-09-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yes, ikr, food again. =.=

This hardly-bigger-than-macaron cake cost $3. :o

And these 2 chocolates aren't any better. 1 for $3. So it's like 2 for $6?! I could have bought another scallop instant ramen! :/

2010-09-01T21:21:00.001+08:00

Told you iPhone4 has a front camera which allows people to camwhore. (Y)

Cookies making for TeeDay!!! ♥

(Didn't bring camera, so the quality's kinda lousy)

Mad funny. That machine spoilt halfway through. xD

I guess it's because of THE DESTRUCTIVE MONSTER! And she spoilt her dad's gadget after using it too! xD

The table's really damn messy. xD

YAY! I wrapped until so nice! :D

Then, played with some photo apps in iPhone.

I took this! :)

So, gonna continue with Day 2 - Your Crush.

Idk what to write though, so here it goes.

Hi? Time flies, isn't it? I've been into you for the 7th month. I can still vividly remember the first day of school. I know it's kind of naive to say that 'wow, the first day of school and you'd already fell for someone'. Guess it's more of eye candy at the early stage. When you suddenly sat down in front of me, idk why i hoped. I thought seriously, out of the whole hall, why are you sitting right in front of me? You don't even belong to my og and yet you're sitting in my og line. Weird eh? The future eye contacts. I hoped yet again. Then i came to realised the ugly truth. But still, i hoped. I know it's stupid but i just kept holding on and hoping. I tried to give up, but it's too difficult. I'm still trying and hoping. All the best for your A Levels, i know you can make it. :)